Thursday, May 29, 2008

Blah

I'm sick. I don't mean a cold or flu or anything like that. No..I'm depressed. Have been for a very long time. I hide it pretty well most days, I think. But lately it feels like I can't anymore. I'm tired. I'm tired and I sleep as much as I can. I have zero energy..and when I do, I don't want to do anything. I make fun of myself more than anyone ever could. I just don't feel good about me. It's confusing though..because while we're doing the best we ever have..and I feel happy about my relationship and the future and all of that..I just don't feel good about *me*. I'm tired of feeling like no one else cares about me when they probably do. I dunno.

Anyway, I have an appointment on the 4th to get me checked out and all of that. I guess we'll see how that goes.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

abby my love,
I'm sad to hear you feel this way. Trust me if anyone knows how it feels to be depressed it's me, and it's not a good feeling. There could be many reasons for it though, and it's good you are getting it checked out. just remember that as sad as you feel, you have a great husband and boys, and an amanda who loves and cares about you more than you know.
hugs hugs
Amanda

Jenna Consolo said...

Glad you're going to get things checked out. I have had bouts like that too. We all do love you. You are surrounded by love and support.

bombadil2 said...

I've had bouts of depression, too. I think many more people do than we realize, because it often isn't talked about. I'm glad you're getting it checked out. It's important to get the cause diagnosed correctly so it can be properly treated. Fortunately, there are often many different treatment options.

David

YogaNana said...

You KNOW we all love you! Like everyone else has said, I'm really glad that you're going to get checked out.

And hey, I'm sometimes depressed for no obvious reason, too.

Love,
Mom

chelsea said...

i know all will be ok, hopefully this hospital won't be a waste of your time and they'll actually do something for you. I remember with my last marriage when i took stuff it took like going through 4 different ones till they found the right one for me...so just be strong and don't let these dumb military doctors get you down when you go. I know they tend to do that.

Saint Holiday said...

Abidoo!
It's all my doing and undoing, the misery genes you inherited from the Old One. I'm so sorry. Nothing worked for me until they unscrewed the top of my head, threw my brain into a blender with some chocolate, Hatch's green chili and Alma 36, gave it all a good swirl at high speed, poured the happy mix back into my boom-bucket and screwed the top back on. Now I sit around and grin all day long. And nice old ladies wipe the drool from my chin. I'm as happy as a king on a swing. Truthfully, I have vast experience with your symptoms and tried everything under the sun to deal with them, as your angel mother could attest. I am always available for consultation. Of course, I love you more than anything, even more than my own eyes. Take care.

Love,
The Dadling