Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Two in one day? Lucky!

I'm so stressed out I feel like vomiting. Apparently? I'm more than $500 overdrawn. I don't want to talk about it except for that something I didn't frigging authorize (that I remembered, anyway) cleared..therefore making everything else? Bounce. And? Overdraft fees on top. I'm angry..and extra stressed out. EXTRA.

Which means tomorrow when we get paid? I have enough for a couple of bills (not the big important ones, either) and groceries. This? Is the long stretch between checks too and AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really just feel like crying. In fact, I teared up on the phone with the bank rep. Seriously.

I got into a "fight" with the husband last night/this morning. I went to bed angry/disappointed/frustrated and that never feels good. We're fine now..obviously. And I miss him again. It just sucks when you try to talk things out over the phone/e-mail AND an 8 1/2 hour time difference. It makes for longer than intended hurt hearts.

I'm also fairly stressed because Calix has been sick with golly gosh knows what since before his birthday. He's been to the doctor's. He's been in the emergency room. Twice. He's been burning up with a fever for the last 4 or 5 days now. He won't eat. He will NOT EAT. He barely drinks anything. He cries/whines all day because ya know..you'd be tired of being sick for so long too if you were him (and yes, he's on meds and STILL sicker than sick). I'm tired tired tired of hearing him whine and cry and wipe snot everywhere. I feel awful for not being able to help the poor guy. I mostly just want him to be happy and goofy again. They say he'll get better. WHEN????

I'm stressed about Maddox and his utter laziness towards being mobile. He also needs to go to the doctor not only to talk about that..but because something weird is going on in his diaper. Who knew taking care of a friggin penis would be so much work? I'm a chick.. I don't have one of those things. No one TELLS you about the upkeep!

A lot of the time..I don't even want to be a mom anymore. It's the diseases that have infiltrated my house over the last 2 months that have me feeling this way..and I know this. But it's like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can I take a break yet?!?!?!


Hilary said...

that makes two of us!

*big hugs* I hope the babies feel better soon, and the money stuff always works itself out. somehow. usually. hopefully. ugh. I totally feel your pain there. That has happened to me more times than I can count.

Jenna said...

Man, I feel for you! We're overdrawn $500 too, and I don't even know WHAT to do, because any money that comes in MUST go to bills, not to cover overages. Sucks! So sorry about your frustrations, and I can't believe that kid is still sick! I hate that! Hang in there, Abs. Glad you have a place to vent and people that love you.

YogaNana said...

Wow, this brings back so much, so vividly, that I almost panic. How much sense does that make?

Yeah, you do need a break, and I wish a major one was coming sooner, but it *is* coming.

Mantra: "This, too, shall pass."

It shall.

I know you had Calix in the ER last weekend but have you called his "real" doctor to tell him what's going on?


Hannah said...

Aww Abs I'm so sorry!! When it rains it pours huh? Not that that helps any. I wish theer was something I could do to help you. It's only got to get better now right?