Wednesday, June 27, 2007

I thought about you pushing me on the swing while at the park while you were here. That made me smile.

I kissed each item of clothing you wore during your visit while tucking them away back into your drawers. That made me sad. It'll be too long before your body fills them out again.

Calix fell out of bed last night and when I went to go put him back, he was still half asleep and confused. I remembered how we used to laugh about that..after we knew he was okay, of course.

There are still a few short whiskers clinging to the sides of our bathroom sink. I almost don't want to rinse them away because I know it'll be a very long time before they're back and irritating me.

I think one of the worst parts of you cleaning up after you. Not because it's an inconvenience..but because very slowly, you start to disappear. I like the imprint you leave in our feels too bland without it.

...I miss you.


YogaNana said...

Oh, Abs, I know this exactly, and you say it so well. But I also know you to be made of strong stuff. You're on the second leg of this experience now, and one day closer to having Orion home again.


Jenna said...

Abby, this is beautifully written, albeit heartbreakingly sad. I'm so glad you have this blog to chronicle this journey for your family. I wish you could print out each entry and put them together in a binder. I love you.