Hormones..and books..and flutters, oh my!

I haven't really been writing much lately. Not because I don't want to..but really? My life has actually been that boring and uneventful.
I got the library here on post to order all of Laurie Notaro's books. They didn't have any of them! "She makes me laugh so hard, I can't sleep at night." I was like "What in the crap? This place sucks." Orion's just like "It's a small library, Cuddle." "I don't care. They don't have ANY good books. Their children's books section? SUCKS. I mean..seriously..who DOESN'T carry any Sandra Boynton?? They just need me to come work for them and order all of the good books" (and by that? I obviously mean everything I want to read). I ended up finding some super cheesy chick book that I'm not too thrilled with..and actually found one of the books I was looking for for Calix. The Giving Tree, of course...to which I sob at the end of each time "it's a mother.. the tree's a mothhheeerrrrr.. she gives all she can till she's just a stumpppp". I'm also hormonal.
Very hormonal. Orion put We Were Soldiers on last night..and I told him.. I freaking told him "please oh please no war movies.." but he did it. He put it on anyway! Okay..okay.. I'll give. Then the tears started flowing..and they wouldn't freaking stop. "This is the movie I based living on post on..and it's nothing like it!" "This is the 60's, Cuddle" "I don't care! No one here's that sweet..and I was so expecting them to be!" The tears kept coming..dripping all over the blanket I was cuddled up in..Orion's wiping them away every few minutes telling me it's all okay and I'm just like "If you leave me like that in the middle of the night, I'll never forgive you" "Like that's even possible. You would feel the bed move and automatically be all over me". That's true.. I'm *that* light of a sleeper. "They're not going to send me a telegram if something happens to you..are they?" "No, Cuddle." I already knew that, though. "What would happen to me and the kids if something did? Like..how long would they wait till they made us leave? Because we obviously can't stay and hold up housing.." "That's a good question." And then he went on with this long ol explanation about blah blah blah how much money I'd be getting and I'm like "I don't give a shit about the money, Orion..I just want to know what would happen". Obviously I wouldn't want to stay in Kentucky.. I'd obviously go back to Colorado or something. He told me they'd probably be considerate and give me enough time to get everything all worked out..and be stable enough to actually leave...but that I shouldn't think about that..because he's coming home. I know he is.. I know...but I need to know things like this as a.. just in case kind of thing. And lemme tell ya..thinking about your husband not coming home ever? Ooo..one of the worst feelings in the world. But it's also a reality..and as dramatic as it feels to talk about? You need to.
I've already felt the baby fluttering around quite a bit over the past few days. I love that right now it's at the stage where only *I* can feel it. I get to be greedy and keep this for myself. It tickles..and it tends to make me laugh. Orion puts his hand on my tummy..and heh..he can't feel it yet. Obviously. I told him it won't be too much longer till he can feel and see the kicks..like with Calix. But for now? I'm enjoying having something that's just for me.
8 more days until I get to hear the heartbeat and see the little person for the first time! With Calix, we got our first ultrasound when I was 7 weeks along. I'll be a little more than 11 weeks along with this one. Calix's first was one of those..internal type ultrasounds (gotta say I don't know the real term for it)..so you could see him a bit clearer. I'm hoping they'll do that with this one. It'll also be interesting to find out what's been going on with the high risk HPV..has it turned into cervical cancer or has it just..gone away? Then get the other questions I have answered.

Last night, I made cookies for all of the guys at the motorpool. Eh..a lot of them (from what I hear) don't get many homebaked goods or anything..so..it's just nice to send some treats along to the fellas my husband works with.

I need to come up with a menu for the next few weeks..and create a shopping list out of it. I think I'll brush my teeth first. OH! It's Monday! My jeans get here today! Should I open the door pantless and be like "Oh, finally!!!" rip the package open and put them on? Heh..