Sunday, August 06, 2006

Violence is Golden?

Horray! My new special table should be here in about an hour! Horray for awesome people! I love Nightshade, ya know. She saw me at my absolute worst..and sees me now at my best. She's the greatest. Never passed judgement on me (ehh as far as I'm aware). A real sweetheart.
Yesterday? We went to dinner at Grandmom's. After dinner, we headed up to the new place up the road (holy crap it's coming along nicely). Grampa told me that they really wanted me to come stay with them towards the end of the pregnancy and after I'm released from the hospital (I signed a contract that I wouldn't be far from post at all after 34 weeks). He told me that if I decided I wanted to, he'd build me a room onto the new house. What?? Yeah, seriously. He said he left room off of the front to build another room at some point and if I wanted to stay for a while, he'd get started on it. They're so sweet. I think I'd feel a bit too awkward, though. One of grampa's sons will be living in the downstairs apartment they built for him. He's different, I tell ya. I think he has special needs anyway..but he's so hillbilly it's hard to tell. Anyway, he was at the house yesterday..and swear to golly, he was staring at me so hard the entire time. I kinda inched closer to Orion to let him know I was getting freaked out..and he held my hand. His gaze shot to our hands..then back up to us. Like..ughhh..SO CREEPY. Orion told me later he was going to say something to him about staring at me like that..but the guy's special..so..what do you say to that? I'm not sure I could live in that house with him that nearby. He really freaked me out that much..and come on.. I don't get freaked out that easily by people. I have this feeling he would try to like..rape me or something. We went back to Grams' place and he showed up..and was getting all playful with Calix. What I really wanted to scream was "DON'T TOUCH MY CHILD!!!!!!"..but I bit my tongue.
Anyway..why am I saying all of this? Why am I being so jerkfaced right now? Well..because I had a dream about him last night. In it..he stole a pair of my pannies and was like "Mmmm..fresh panties!" and started to run off with them. I screamed..chased him down..and smashed his head on the pavement a few times screaming at him to never ever act that way towards me again and blah blah blah. There was blood..the ambulance showed up.. I told them it was self defense.

Have any of you ever been so turned off by someone..so..ughh..creeped out that you go home and dream violent things about them? Anyone?

I could just be being a protective crazy pregnant lady again.

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