To say that my son loves his mommy more than his daddy's terrible..but true. I try to urge Calix to go spend more time with daddy doing MAN things, but he just seems to scream and cry until I show up.
I keep telling Orion it's just because he sees me more often. I'm home with him all day. I know exactly what he needs when he needs it..and I think Calix might find it a little frustrating that Orion doesn't act as quickly as I do..and doesn't seem to do things the way his mommy does. I can tell it breaks his heart. He just wants to spend time with his little man..and all little man seems to want is his mommy.
This bahavior does not work for me. I want to be able to leave Calix with O and go to the bathroom without hearing screaming from below. I want to be able to have O watch him for a bit while I take a nap..or a shower..or anything that consists of me being alone with myself and my thoughts for a little while.
Though, I won't lie when I say having moments where Calix just wants to cuddle with me..cheek to cheek is one of the best things ever. When he's sitting in my lap and feels comfy enough to just lounge out on me and watch what I'm doing warms my heart. And when I randomly look at him, he catches me and gives me one of those really great toothy baby smiles..I have to smile back and chuckle.
...I just wish Orion could feel those same things.
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