tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30300011.post7623237527217822645..comments2023-11-05T02:42:18.141-05:00Comments on Screaming on the Inside: Week 23..day 161Abbyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13772859120482774595noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30300011.post-29271369739619735502007-07-30T00:08:00.000-05:002007-07-30T00:08:00.000-05:00OH and? Do you know what I was thinking walking d...OH and? Do you know what I was thinking walking down the stairs to my door at 11:49PM? Because I hadn't heard from Ryan for a week? Yeah I was thinking bad news, I was all nervous opening the door and the whole time I was talking to him. He came back an hour later, I guess because I was so shook up and confused that he thought I might have taken something, but I had already talked to my friend and explained to him what she said.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-30300011.post-79584446533361080852007-07-30T00:04:00.000-05:002007-07-30T00:04:00.000-05:00I screamed at Kyler this weekend also. I felt so ...I screamed at Kyler this weekend also. I felt so bad after. The MP's did come to my house though. Not about that, but it kinda goes along with losing your mind through a deployment so I'll tell you, even though I was going to keep this between the ppl that already know because I don't want anyone to think I'd really do this.<BR/><BR/>So Thursday at 11:49 PM I wake up to knocking on my door. It was the MP's saying that they got a call that someone here was overdosing. Apparently my friend got a text "from me" that asked what would happen if I took 16 vicodin, she was calling but I turned all my ringers off when I went to sleep because I was super tired and Ryan doesn't call then. After the MP sees that I was asleep and not dying I call my friend who I had a ton of missed calls and text msgs from. She received a text that had my number but it wouldn't save on her phone as my name in her contact list, something weird, so she wasn't sure it was from me, but since I didn't answer my phones she thought it was and she found a way to get the number to the MP's here and called. I'm glad she was worried like that and if I were really in trouble she knows what to do to help me, but at the same time I was really upset that she would think that I would do that to myself and my child. Here I am thinking I'm doing so well through this deployment, out here all alone and hardly knowing anyone, most days the only conversations I have are with a 7 month old and I'm ok with that, but apparently my friends think that I'd do something like this...sorry to flood your comment page like this.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com